I've been looking at the photos i have on fb, seems like i've been less and less motivated to whip out the camera in recent years. maybe it's because i am jaded, or perhaps it's just pure laziness, but the new camera i bought a few months ago has been sitting comfortably in the drawer, not seeing the light of day. i'm not even sure which drawer it's in, or whether it has already turned mouldy. i know my boots have recently turned into a mould greenhouse... i recall being trigger happy before, what has changed? i don't even like being photographed anymore, remember how i used to be a camera whore, gummy smile and all? now it's mostly hao-e in pictures not just because i'm a better photographer, but also due to this reluctance i have to appear in photos. i remember going through a phase of hating to be photographed when i was about 5 or 6 years old. either i had my back facing the camera, or i was crying pathetically with mucus running down my nose, etc. i absolutely detested taking pictures. and then i went on a trip some crazy trigger happy cousins, who insisted on having solo photos for everyone at the same scene e.g. imagine - mountain in the background - if there were 5 people around, we would take 6 photos, 1 for the whole group, and 1 each for each person's personal photo album. it took a crazy amount of time before we could move on, but the photos were really darn good. i started to take photography more seriously and even joined a photography club in high school. and then what happened? i honestly am mystified myself.
i must really put in an effort to enjoy photography again.
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