Skip to main content

Happy Thoughts..

Realised that my blog entries were mostly sad/disturbed/whiny/frustrated, or neutral. so this shall be my first happy entry ^^

Last week, work was quite pleasant, due to the absence of a particular mister eight-legged creature, (who's unfortunately back in my life at present..) this week, the creature has added 8 more legs as his able deputy has gone on hols. as i would like to believe (and have been trying to convince myself to), life goes on whether you are happy or sad, so let's just look on the bright side, and hang on...

on friday, went for a haircut at randy's. he cut off most of my hair as i sat there complaining about my life, and receiving consolation from all the staff there in return. so now hair is quite short, till tie-able but the pony has loss much bulk from its tail, as the hair has been severely thinned and layered. the colour has also been changed to an orangey shade of brown, which is just the hue that i like. thanks randy, you know me so well.

as usual, the weekend passed too quickly for my liking. and all too soon, the fun was over and monday came. this time though, depression set in at about 10pm last night, when it finally dawned on me that monday was looming and the week was not going to be easy ahead. as fr john paul said last sunday, sometimes we are 'surviving' each week, and not really living it. i don't just want to survive. i want to be happy to be alive. there's a marked difference in that. anyways, so i was depressed. and then i woke up twice at night because it was too warm, (it was so so hot, like 40 deg celcius i think yesterday) and i had 2 nightmares, one where hao-e was upset with me over a pair of spectacles and the other because of work. btw, for those who don't already know, yours truly suffer from nightmares about work. i think i worry too much about it. such a waste of time and energy, this worrying. i'm trying desperately to take things a little easier and lighter, in the hope that i won't be so stressed about it and maybe i can grow to like certain aspects of it.

ah well.. the nightmares go on, so does my life, the earth doesn't stop spinning, so i shall stop dwelling on the things. gotten through monday, so there's 4 more days left to the next weekend. things can only get better right?

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Jay Chou

Blasting Jay Chou into my ears with my broken ear-phones.. hee. I still love him so much! one of those singers whose songs cause my body to move and groove to the rhythm. just feel like dancing. my interest in mr chou waned though in recent months due to his new gf. i mean she's an improvement over jolin but i still think she's a bit ah... how shall i put it, not very nice. somehow i feel she's mean. not as guai and angelic as she looks. still have a soft spot for ppl who are nice. why can't ppl be nice? i'm trying to be nice. (my new mantra - " Be nice ") haha. i mean people who know me from before know i'm quite harsh and critical and unforgiving. so nice has got be a NEW mantra for me. Next thing you know, i'll be meditating in a nunnery atop a mountain with a thousand steps cut into it. every morning i'll be climbing down those steps to fetch a pail of water... and jack and i will fall down the hill with the pail and all... yikes, ...

Shujun's Birthday!!

Seems like yesterday when the new year 2005 started.. now it's May, and we've celebrated Beek's, Lihui's and Wanping's birthdays. Time seems to be passing too fast for birthdays for i refuse to admit that i'm older [again], yet it passes too slowly when i'm sad or down. Ah well, life isn't a box a chocolates. nor a piece of cake. it's full of cakes! birthday cakes especially. in 2 days, one of my best mates will be turning 24. it's been more than a decade, us knowing each other from sec sch days. haha! I just want you to know that you'll always going to be my lap cheong. my very cute friend who can sing "one night in Beijing" in both guy and gal's voices and break the record too! my ultra loyal friend who stuck by me all these years, listening to my whining and complaints. i have a lot of respect for ppl who can stand my nonsense, cos well, i'm not an easy person to like.. ask my buddies they'll tell you. [better still, ...
it's funny how you learn things about yourself - your likes and dislikes - every single day. here's a list of dislikes: eager beavers people who fake an accent people who talk more than they do people who claim credit when they've done nothing (oh! old debts) back-stabbers gossipers (is there such a word?) that stir up trouble like there ain't enough of that already?! inconsiderate people .... more to come, i just know it is it too much to ask to have decent people around? there's a chinese saying, that even on the same hand the fingers are of different lengths. but is it really impossible to have everyone cross a certain threshold of decency and not stick out like a sore thumb? i've often wondered why some 40 year olds act the way they do - as if they hate the whole world. i think i'm in danger of being that sort of 40 year old as the list gets longer, and i meet more obnoxious people. argh. (*_*)