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Why do people blog?

I've been thinking, why am i religiously blogging? Am i bored with my life? In a way, yes, my life is not too interesting. i'm not rescuing people affected by earthquakes or tsunamis. i'm not spreading God's word in some obscure corner of the earth (which doesn't make sense cos earth's round, therefore there are no corners). i'm not even volunteering any of my free time to the less fortunate. what am i happy with my life? in my 23 years, what have i done for others? I can't think of anything really substantial to speak of. when i die, what will ppl remember of my existence? "Stella watched a lot of Korean shows (with good endings), whined a lot, tagged along to all the group outings (never organising any), took a long time warming up to ppl (if at all), seemed kinda proud... " I need to do something about this.

i guess i just want to let off steam. There are things going on with my life, which are beyond my control, which i'm not particularly happy about. But i'm not totally unhappy yet. don't send me into woodbridge yet, i'm not that depressed. in fact, i'm desperately trying to stop myself from turning into this sad, jaded person, (which i think i'm gradually becoming *shiver*). i'm counting my blessings from now. Why am i happy with my life? Because i have a bunch of great friends who has been with me for at least 10 years. (wow!!) Because i have a great guy with me, who's patient and kind and considerate. smart too. Because i have my family who cares for me. Because because. i'm glad to be alive.

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